It’s
4.30 AM, and I didn’t know why I awaken. I stared at the blank ceiling, tried
to hear any voices, and relieved that there wasn’t any sound of the rain. I
thought of Jakarta and the flood. I prayed that today would be a sunny day.
I
was grateful that I could move to Puncak as soon as the water got into my
house. I checked my twitter for any updates in Jakarta. Some of my friends twit
that they got the electricity again, some still on the black outs. The twits
about how grateful they were caught my attention.
Isn’t
it easy to be grateful when the flood get into your house and you still have
the second floor to save yourself? Isn’t it pretty easy to be grateful when you
still have food to eat? Isn’t it easy to be grateful when you still can twit,
even in the middle of black out and flood? Isn’t it easy to tell other to be
patient and grateful no matter what the situation are? Some of students even
take this flood as the unexpected break and feel grateful about it.
But
this morning I thought about people who’ve been evacuated because the water
have sunk half of their house. People who don’t have access to clean water.
They
who lost their relatives because of the flood. They who starved, who is sick,
and have to sleep without shelter. I wonder if they still can be grateful. How
could you be grateful when the cross you bear felt heavier than others? I tried
to imagine myself in their position, and I doubt myself.
And I started to question what makes people grateful? What
makes me grateful? I think I can be thankful for something when I stop
comparing myself to others, or when I count my own blessings instead of others.
I don’t know if people out there who experiencing the flood are grateful or
not. May some of them do, and others don’t. But I realized that being grateful
is a choice, a state of mind. A faith that our God is always good.
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